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I only found this blog about a month ago I believe, after following a link to Appleleaf on LJ and clicking the link there. Even though I don’t usually read blogs, I quite like your blogging, and actually because it was a bit personal – it seems like several years ago, I could easily find people blogging more personally, about their thoughts and feelings on “important” things in life (but that’s probably not true; it may just be the way I browse now as I’ve gotten older.) Your writings kinda took me back to a good feeling I used to have – I guess I kinda felt like I could relate to you? And that’s also because I have hypothyroidism. (I was treated for it from 13-16, quit taking medication due to depression, was on and off it multiple times until 2 months ago and I’m 19 now… here’s to hoping maybe this time I’ll stay on it, and get additional treatment for depression or whatever else I may have if i need it, heh.). It was funny, because I read some of your older entries before I read the post where you said you had hypothyroidism. I was feeling very depressed when I first found this blog, and some of the problems you wrote about in your older entries under “actual life” were so much like my own. You described all of those feelings so perfectly, and when I saw the thing about you having hypothyroidism, I thought “of course! I should have guessed”. Eh, I’m not really sure what my point with this rant of a comment is. I guess, even though I liked reading about you, a stranger’s, and your own personal thoughts, I agree that it’s best to keep most of that stuff private, unfortunately. (I even deleted my own LJ a couple years ago because I felt uncomfortable about that kind of thing.. the internet is just not a good place to be so open in most cases, I now believe.) I just wanted to say I’ve really enjoyed what you have written in this blog. And also that I’m so glad getting treatment for your hypo helped you so much.. it seems like I’m not that lucky. Your situation kind of gives me hope, though.

By the way, I think you’re a great writer. You described those depressive feelings so clearly and precisely, in a way I always wished I could. My brain is always very foggy and I get frustrated that I can’t usually explain things properly when I talk to people, but now I could just show someone one of your blog entries and say “that’s exactly how I feel.” Haha. I really think you should take advantage of your writing skills sometime.

Good luck! Looking forward to the new blog as well. :)

p.s i linked you at ohkamikaze.net :)

and that show in general <3